it's me again

I'm not sure what's going on with me.   I'm tired and crabby and sick of school.  I hate winter and it's only been a week.   I guess a need a vacation,only no breaks til Thanksgiving and I volunteered to cook so that's not a break  'either, but at least I get leftovers.  Hope I survive til Christmas.

Onward and Upward!

 School starts again on Sept. 12.  It's going to be a tough semester; lots of homework and memorization. Daunting.  I wish I felt better about my future prospects and about how well  i will hold up.  Time to suck it up, do my best and triumph!

Life is really dull right now

I really haven't got anything earth-shaking to say today.  I have an english paper due soon.
on a "concept"  mine is resiliency.  Not that I really have a handle on that. but the idea merits research and reflection.  I'm hoping I'll learn how to be a more resilient person.   Sometimes  I think I'm on top of it and sometimes I know I have no clue.  I'm tired of being sucker-punched by life and I'm hoping to figure out how to minimize that.  Realizing that eliminating it is impossible.  I always hope for Ah-Ha moments!

My Poor Bum!!

So, wed. night coming home on the bus I fell against the seat and massacred my buttocks!!!  I have a bruise the size of Wyoming on my right cheek and its so swollen I can't wear jeans.   It's higher up than the part you sit on but if I lean back at all it is very owie!!!!  Now my back hurts from lack of support and my bum hurts from MAJOR bruising and I'm tired and crabby cuz you can't sleep with a sore bum.  Hopefully all this whining will help me get over myself and get on with my life.   P.S. stairs are no fun!!!!

School Victories!

I got an 86% on my fractions test!  This is no small thing!  I have never been able to understand the concept behind multiplying and dividing fractions.  To me its gobblety-gook.  Yes, I can make it work, but it makes no sense in my head.  I just follow the steps the book says and pray I can repeat it on  the test.  This time it went pretty well.   Next time, its a crap shoot!  I still believe that math is more evil than good.  Fully aware that the majority of my friends and family disagree.  But, hey, I got an 86% !

First week of school

What was I thinking going to summer school?  Math and Keyboarding are killing me.  They remind me that I'm old and I hate that---in my head I'm still 25.  We all have our delusions, right?   I'll stop whining and buckle down,  but I won't like it!!!

Back to School blahhs!

The summer semester has started.  I'm sure I 'll be glad someday.  But not today! I'm tired and cranky and don't feel good and I don't want to do my homework and its only the 1st week--not a good sign.  However, I will perservere and conquer!  At least, I hope so.

Memorial Day revisited

The weekend in SV was good.  Lin Dee's grave even had sod, as well as a headstone.  One less thing to worry about.  I love it when I can cross things off the LIST.  You know, that list we all have in the back of our heads that piles up in endless things to stress about.  After crossing of headstone and grass, Ive now added ALGEBRA
I bought the book today and I understand NOTHING!!!!!  Its going to be a long summer!

memorial day

The headstone is in place.  It only took them10 months.  But its finally there and now memorial day will be complete.  Wishing I could go see my mom, too, but I can't be in two places at once.  If someone knows how  let me know, please.  Miss you, Mom!  Miss you LinDee!

more experiences

Baby-sat my nephew and nieces tonight.  Such sweet kids, but they make me homesick for my grandkids!  I'm the kind of grandma that wants to have slumber parties at my house and cookies in my cookie jar, and read lots of bed time stories, but they are far away.  So those dreams are on hold and other children get the benefit of my frustration and maybe, that's not all bad.   I'd probably spoil the grandkids rotten and then their parents would hate me and that's bad!  Sometimes, the things we want the most are not what is best for everyone involved and we need to understand that; and then move on.

new fun blogs

I just found two new blogs to follow--crafting of course--I'm so excited that I'm kinda figuring out how to do  this.  You're right Susan, much better and cheaper than therapy!!

Yeah Me!

I'm so proud of myself!  I figured out my url and how to add other blogs to follow...still working on the up and download stuff!

next post attempt

I'm blogging again.  My friend Susan tells me its cheaper than therapy.   Checked all my kids facebook pages and sounds like they're fine, so that's good news, and the grandkids seem good, too.  I, however, am sick of rain and tired of being broke.  Inconcievably, nobody I've applied to wants to give me a part-time job,so I can work on my education as well.  Some people have no appreciation of the necessity of education  in today's world.   Seriously, its probably for the best.   Memorial Day is coming and I need to make a pilgrimage.  Wish I knew how to add pictures and other cute stuff.   One more thing to learn!

Starting Over....again.

Well here we go again..Tried this once and it disappeared so ..whatever.  Anyway, I'm blogging so I can feel a little younger and vent a little and maybe share a little of what I've figured out over the last 58 years.  This past 2 and 1/2 years have been full of sadness and change.  I've lost my mom and husband, my kids have grown up and moved on and I've had to figure out who I am and what to do next.  This has been revelatory and unsettling.  I find I still have no clear idea of what I want to be when I grow up...and I still need to grow up some.  I also find the I have grown in ways I never envisioned, and I'm very proud of what I've done.  I returned to school this last winter and did much better than I thought and I coped with financial difficulties and emotional difficulties with minimal meltdowns.  All in all a pretty good start-over.   Hope to get better at this blogging stuff (downloads?!, uploads?!, pictures?!)  I'll try to get a handle on all that stuff and make this more fun to look at ( if anyone does) Take care and blog you later!